Visit To Newcastle

Re: The two things you asked me, Tidge:

Firstly: What was I praying, Sunday night?

I had just spent the whole weekend having a tour of your new life; an ‘open day’ view of Catie in Newcastle. OK, yes, it had it’s glossy aspect; I didn’t have to attend a lecture and do one of your assignments! Nevertheless, we had a taster of the places, the people, the number of things you do, and how often, hearing of the many mornings a week getting up early to go to prayer meetings, amongst other regular slots. It wasn’t hard to imagine the late noisy nights in hall, at the other end of the proverbial candle, as you gigglingly returned the broken table leg to it’s hiding place in the kitchen cupboard. We did muck in with cleaning up  ‘polystudent festidensis’  in the communal area! This experience admittedly being considerably more rewarding, on meeting some of your flatmates, than the Damien Hirst ‘installation’ we viewed earlier in the weekend.

So, by Sunday evening, I felt I’d built in my mind, a well illustrated resume of your first term and a half at university. It was impressive. I compared the wholesomeness of your student life with what mine had been at roughly the same time. There was no comparison. I had a quick ‘fast forward’ impression of both our lives, and of mine since, as obviously, I have a lot more years on record! Suddenly I recognised that I could ask for more potential to be fulfilled and released, in my life. It was the starkness of the contrast, having seen myself at 19 and then you. So I just wanted to have more readiness, higher expectations of myself and life, less worry that I was unworthy, inadequate, rubbish…more grace outworking, more reliance on Jesus and therefore resiliance. I was celebrating all that God has been able to pour into you and through you, all the life that has flowed and all the rhythm that has been swelling the glorious heartbeat of heaven. This probably sounds crazy to you but I don’t know how else to put it into words. I was celebrating and yet suddenly dissatisfied with what I believed to be consequences of my broken and confused eruption from a sense of powerlessness, being passive, having an ignorant acceptance of the inevitable to insecure, somewhat rejected but nevertheless independent existance. I had such a long way to go, didn’t I? And I am glad that God has brought me this far. Yet I believe there is still much more! Life is full and I am very blessed, but during that worship I suddenly wanted to live more! So I placed all that before the cross. The past is dealt with, no more tears over that, at all. What I put before the cross was my whole history as a context, as if it’s a sealed unit. My now also, and myself. ‘Take me all: I want transformation beyond what is humanly possible.’

I have filled out what I actually prayed because when sharing this with another, so much more qualification and explanations seems to need to be given.

As I said when I was summoned by Mark, we sang the line…”my life is in your hands”… I was all the while participating fully in the worship. So I knelt down, because it was like a compassionate..”OK, I hear you,” from the father.

And secondly: What was prophesied over me?

Mark saw an annointing on me, and said he had seen it from the beginning of the evening. He saw the word ‘Deborah’ over me. He saw that there is a ready warrior in me, and related the example of Deborah agreeing to lead the Israelites into battle when a man would not go. So Israel was delivered into the hands of a woman that day. He saw that the specific area that I would stand against was the occult. I would not be alone. He saw it was as if I was walking down a hill and witches and demons were fleeing, and I was surrounded by angels who would protect me. (Quoted about the angels who encamp around the righteous.)

When he said these things I was not too grateful! I didn’t really want to have to go any where near the occult! Such a ready warrior!!! However, I will let it sit in the scales of my spirit and let it be weighed before the Lord. He prayed that whatever was not of the Lord would be forgotten. I think the bit about being a warrior is probably true. I have a spirit that becomes indignant for the things of God, especially his people and especially if I think they are getting spiritual attack…so….

Then I heard from Jenny, (I am grateful that God gave Jenny sight of my broken and softer side). She saw me in God’s hands. (C:) His hands were cupped all around me. The picture became even softer than that. As if I was in a womb, so fully surrounded and in such a place of sanctuary and safety and protection. It speaks into my spirit of acceptance as a wanted child also. Very healing.

So these are your questions answered. I hope that I have explained well to you, especially the first bit, but I fear the first bit will get a bit lost in translation.

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arrow prayers (10/32)

Just bringing people and their constant need for blessing and your care into your light.

Karenina, make safe all plans and hopes for this Chrismas and put your protection and shine your countenance over her and her family. Thank you. Let the expectations for 2010 be fuelled by grace and constant prayer.

Chippy: healing, patience, love, joy and faithfulness. Open his heart, mind and eyes again to the refreshing of your presence and abiding Spirit. Please give him such new encouragement and deep peace, especially at the cottage in the next few days. Let his fatherhood be like a watering place, with homecoming and resting and celebration under fruit trees. let the camp be blessed with stories and fellowship that strengthen and lengthen the bonds within the family. Not yet is the season of fall. Let the summer be long!

The Cherub: Stacks of praise like riches in the hold. The big fleet full of treasures bound for your Kingdom is preparing for the journey. The accoustics of song and joy drown out the sound of the pounding waves: The waves will be harnessed to carry the ships and the sun in the  wind-filled sails is dazzling. The emblems of Righteousness and Humility inspire the crew. Blessing; blessing and hope and promice take them and love hold them on course. Be delighted, O Lord.

The Tidge: Thank you for the fellowship and trust in you that we share and the frequent wanderings together with you. Let it be a fruitful walk as indeed the buds and flowers have already held through some storms. Protect what you are doing and the fruit of each season. High yield for your glory, please. I will soon have the chance to hold her myself but even with one day to go, I ask for your arms to be about her always. Grace and the beauty of truth and holiness infuse her life to fullness! Thankyou.

Mary and Beloved: Seal all your promices into their hearts, to awaken the soul as the mind lets its proud guard drop. Prepare for the banquet when the ungrateful invitees have refused, bring in the hungry. Let the hunger bite! You alone can do good. You alone can make humble. yet she stands and knows she is already in the reception. Give her assurance and comfort. Her gratitude is precious to you. I lay all my ignorance down as I ask for your love and salvation to be fulfilled in them.

Onyx: Give her safe travels and use all she offers to you to bring blessing and glory to you. Protect and guide. Return refreshed. Help in the areas where she and others struggle with each other. So no blockages can clog up the flow of your Spirit of fellowship.

Joe T Shuster: Happy times and learning combine to refresh and bring joy in his family and his future life as your man. Discernment and passion balance to make all he does for you like the Sword of the Holy Spirit..with you not just for you, dividing between bone and marrow. Effective and loving in ministry and leadership.  Protect from distraction and strengthen in confidence in all you are in him. Let him lean on you always and never be deceived by the empty praise and kisses of jealous enemies. Thank you.

Esther, cara, Timothy, The tetrarch’s brother: Bring your mercy in healing and glory amongst them. Surround with your gentle hand of guidance. Thank you for hearing the believers’ prayers. Sustain them all with the power of your mighty Word. Let no accident or attacks of the enemy break through the shield of their faith. Your promises make this ‘Yes’ in Christ. So lead them on and lead them out onto the highway of your will. Let them walk in the light of your blessing always and know your wing of protection is over them. Let perfect love dwell amongst them giving no permission for fears to overtake. You are God. Let all be still until this is acknowledged if storms arise. Let the Emmanuel Christ be at the head of their home, watching them going out and seeing them safe at their return.

Other names I only have time to lift up before you: Marianne, Louisa and Polly and parents. Demitri: not forgotten but have neglected to ask again: outragous request that he grows to be a great man of god. Why not? Much thanks for all the wonders of your perfect work and perfect timing. Matthew, Tony and Gabi, Andy, Sorrell and family, The Taunton Raikeses altogether. The Emerys. Much to say thanks for here. keep on with so much answered prayer. If I’m not specific I won’t have set targets to check if they’ve been met!! However, they are in your care and this is all I desire to pray into. Your targets are so much higher than mine! Please amaze us at what you will do!

Right, I must go…so much to do. This is it till I don’t know when. Please cover everything and protect us all and let the world know your Love is here. The favour and salvation is all available now and we will celebrate his coming in the coming days. Let love prevail and wisdom be heard. Especially where it will produce results. Renew the minds of the people. Let them go and hear the truth preached. Let hearts be opened to you and minds seek your truth. I pray for the world..as an atom in the lip of a flea has some role in the life of the herd of Wildebeasts that roam the savanna….only less so. You however are God. Tis enough!