The moon is back

_46468036_008043128-1Of course, the moon never went anywhere. This is the first time it has been visible at dusk in a long period of grey days. No wonder her freckled, silver face looks so helpless: Check out the news….another tsunami, another couple of earthquakes today and tremors continuing and numbers of dead rising.

I was outside, having dealt with all my little Wednesday tedia, unravelling my thoughts and a blanket of knitted trefoil roots. It was so lovely and peaceful here. Seems incongruous. The sky, which has held back significant rainfall for over a fortight was heavy, sleepy lilac, like Katie Melua’s song. One lonely star, the tearful moon, a shredded veil of clouds framed my tiny, undisturbed, unkempt patch of Wales. People are trapped and crushed in terror and rubble, probably some wishing even the relief of death would come soon. God…..?*?*?……Help them. Thank you…the toddler washed away, the woman who’s children were swept out of her saw it all and allowed it. And we don’t have to make excuses for you, and you are merciful and good and loving so thank you because you have the answers…I’m just praying you give them to those people, not me, (despite the accusation my heart feels yet again and cannot hide) or anyone who merely observes and wonders. Thank you that there are people on this planet right now who, though they have lost their loved ones, yet they know you are lovingly in control. Help them to help the ones who don’t know that love and are grieving.  The glory when we all understand how the jigsaw fits together will certainly be beyond all imagining. Is Job weeping with the moon up there or is he smiling, I wonder? I trust he has moved on from where I stand. Yet I stand here not wanting to be at a distance from you. I want to be right up close, Yes you are good and you have your arms around me, and the suffering ones. I pray they feel your safety in their danger, somehow, and I believe grace makes it possible for them to.

These are the other things I pray for, no matter how far the scale of need ranges, I’m not going to ‘scale out’ these prayers! God has the most amazing zoomability and for him nothing is overwhelming or too insignificant by comparison.

1 Sophie; please help her to sleep. Please bring healing to all the things that have been wrong and which stop her from falling and staying asleep, feeling secure, being able to concentrate or trust or any other wholesome asset in her life. Thank you, Jesus, that you bring ‘life to the full’ to those that receive you. Thank you that you deal with people on an individual basis and for your unconditional love for Sophie. As each day of the term unfolds, please give wisdom, patience and understanding to Liriene and vast resources of good humour!

2 Joe T Shuster; Let him find plenty of space in all his relationships to be himself, for you in him to minister to the youth and the church in general. Please enable and bless his relationship with his mentor/manager to be really constructive, built on Godliness, trust, understanding and repect. Let the young people recognise you in him and that  they are accepted and can be themself too and continue to let them grow in grace, as Christ grows in them. So wonderful God, let the church’s joy and confidence and hope in you be daily renewed. Let them see your kingdom come, their family unity grow and your glory displayed, so more people of the wider community see you and that you are alive and good and The Saviour. Amen.

3 The chippy. Oh Dad of all dads, lift him up and give him lots of peace and reassurance. Please help him every time he worries about work, the future and all the things that weigh him down, to lean it all on you. All of it. Please have an answer to those concerns too. In the meantime, while we wait to know, please help him to sleep well, not to ache, to keep patience and gentleness and kindness in his heart for all he meets, not just those who deserve it. Let him feel you feeding his soul as he waits for refilling of your Spirits counsel. Thank you that you will never leave him or ignore him. Thank you that you love him beyond space and time. keep him right there knowing you do and that you are the ROCK.

4 Thank you for The cherub and all that she is and is becoming in your love and care. Thank you that you have done so much and that she still loves me, in spite of what I have been. I am really grateful for what you have placed in her soul; for what you invest in her for the training and discipline you keep on using to make her so beautiful as you form Christ in her. Let her be more and more stunning, I would call myself  greedy for asking for this except that it is all for your glory and we are so priveleged to get to see it even slightly and dimly. So let your plans and purposes be fulfilled, keep her teachable and ready to go where and when you call. And God, you will refine these foolish words, I know, so please do only your will, but please always be so gentle and spare her pain if it isn’t necessary. I know you are the most trustworthy parent and I shouldn’t want to protect her from refining fires, but I know you Jesus, even on the cross saw the human needs of his mother and John…Thank you. Please see her and Adonnise home without any stress or worry, especially regarding tickets and railcards etc.

5 The Tidge. Ditto most of the above. I am so grateful and I want you to have all your own way because it is you in the person, you in the Tidge, that is so glorious and nearing perfection. So beautiful. So inspiring of praise and joy and delight. Thank you that she desires that. Keep that desire alive for her whole life and satsfy it with yourself, dear God, please. I love seeing the bigger picture but again, when I think of the details on a day to day level I fear for her because she is just a fragile human, and my own. I want her to grow but I dont want the growing pains. Still you are good and I know she wouldn’t want to be limited to a stuffy little comfort zone. So keep her trust and hope in you vibrant and vital for the simple fact that you live in her and will never leave her. Take her hand as she finds her way in the new surroundings and help her deal with all the challenges ahead with wisdom and proper proportion. Thank you.

6 My parents. God you know what they need, you have all they need and I pray that you meet that need in Christ, in them, day by day. Thank you for your grace and infinite wisdom. Let love and faithfulness never leave them. Not for one minute. Let them find they are uplifted more as they lean on you more. Give Dad new flying lessons…that make his previous flying days come to mind and be eclipsed. Have the glory from horizon to horizon. Thank you for them. Thank you for the life and newness that you bring to every area of  my relatinship with them that I bring before you in faith. There are things I ‘worry’ about and feel that Dad just doesn’t accept/understand that are the truth. Please help me to either help or leave it to you and to know which to do at the right time. Thank you so much that you are  Saviour, Prince of Peace and Counselor. That is all I need. Thank you.

7  Tonight. Please may I sleep? Please don’t let the accuser use the ‘sleep scriptures’ to imply that I am not loved because I don’t sleep. I guess that’s my responsibility! Thanks for equipping me.

moon at dusk


2 thoughts on “The moon is back

  1. Hi Judith, You reach my soul with your words and you glorify God. Thank you for your unplifting faith – one of a soldier who knows the battle.

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